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Nothing is as it appears.

Seemingly perfect situations always disappoint.
People will always be human.

I guess the honeymoon stage is over.
I hope its not to late to wake up and face reality.

yep

So for those who don't know, I work at a youth center. This job includes putting on events for high schoolers. Now lets think about some of the worst things that can happen while putting on events for minors. Hum, well you could write down the wrong place and address on every flier, or you could take the bus with the kiddies and get them completely lost because you got on the wrong bus, or the best, someone could seriously injure themselves, like a broken foot.

Well so far an event I've put on has included all of these!!


Why the hell have I not been fired yet?

please don't disappoint

I guess it would only make sense that as I am changing rapidly through experiences and age, people who live an hour and a half north of me also go through similar changes. I guess the awkward part is when these two entities, who were once very familiar with each other grow and change completely separate from each other, then reunite. I once knew you and you once knew me. We can't understand the difference and are offended by it. "Well I am allowed to change and be different, but familiarity is comfortable, so please don't disappoint."

I am living in the past. But not an accurate representation of similar situations that have already come to pass, but a diluted sugar coated existence where I am wrongly remembering "the good ole days". Things have changed and I've changed. Of course I've changed. If I spent 2 years at college and didn't change, well that would be a waste.

Those who were once peers, are now proving less and less that they are up to the challenge. Maybe it was always tainted. Maybe I've been given eyes to see past high school bull shit. I hope so. It seems as though each community requires 100% of me and I don't have that to offer. I think I am being asked to sacrifice. I can't give myself fully to both so I must choose. Both need someone to commit to years of servitude and my specific gifts will come in handy with each.

Challenging the status quo is hard and I feel like I'm neglecting the inevitable.

Familiarity is comforting. That's why decisions are sometimes hard to make. I don't want to ignore a call because I'm afraid of what I'll hear. On the other hand, things can looking tempting from certain angles, yet reveal itself fully later on.

I have been in Olympia too long

Is Charlie right?

(well thats obviously not possible)

Is Edmonds a dangerous crime ridden city?

I always felt so sheltered growing up here. Like that the big city is miles away and I am stuck in a suburban bubble. I laughed at the notion that Edmonds was a dangerous community where you needed to lock the doors at night. I thought I was immortal in this town. But being in Olympia for so long has allowed me to be removed from this community and now I am more accurately able to reflect on it. So maybe it isn't normal to see people doing drug deals, maybe it isn't normal for most of the people I know to have warrants, maybe it isn't normal for the cops to visit my home once a week, maybe it isn't normal to live just blocks away from the hooker motels, and maybe its totally more interesting not to be normal.

So I might be in a little more "danger" than residents of La Conner, but my eventual goal is to leave the suburbs and stake my residency in the big city. I guess I can just consider all of this practice. And besides, a little edge is hella punk rock, which of course is always my goal.

I guess the weird thing about Edmonds is that although alot of citizens of this fine city are very familiar with "big city ways," I feel like about half are ridiculously sheltered. I mean it is almost a different experiance growing up a few blocks west of Highay 99, than it is living in downtown Edmonds.

Today is the birthday of this wonderful country.

meh.

I went to a Mariners game last night, it was pretty awesome. I mean the Mariners totally lost, which is lame, but this season I really wouldn't expect anything more. I saw this band LP and the BB and one of the guys has a kingdome tattoo. Badass. I want to get an oldschool Mariners hat, like blue and yellow one with the upside down trident.

Oh, I've been playing lots of fooseball. I love it!

cars are for earth killers and bikes are for posers!

So I am two weeks into my internship at the Jeremiah Center, and it is going amazing! I have an office, which is rad. I haven't been doing much of anything else. Some cool things I get to be apart of this summer include but not limited to: ultimate frisbee, bible study, weekday kazbas, VBS, yuck night, super heros vs super villans, and much much more! The one down side to this job is that it kind of sucks away my social life, which is okay, because I don't have much of a social life to begin with. Its pretty weird not being in Olympia. Although it is awesome being just a short(er) bus ride from Seattle. 

I want to go to What The Heck Fest this summer, but it isn't looking too good. Heck Fest is the weekend before VBS, which is looking like the busiest week of the summer. And well, I have a lot to prepare and need to be back early-ish on Sunday. I discovered last year while busing to and from Anacortes, it is impossible to bus out of Anacortes on a Sunday. Maybe if I could get a ride to Mount Vernon, it is a possibility. Well hopefully I can figure it out. So if anyone wants to go to Heck Fest this summer, lets do it!! I am probably going to get my ticket soon. 

Oh and in other good news. I am riding my bike all over the place now. It is awesome that riding my bike comes with this false sense of superiority over my fellow man. (I mean man as in people, not like the sex man. I know this is pretty sexist but I decided that fellow man sounded better than fellow person, so suck it!) But really  I feel so superior now, like I am going to save the planet and all you car drives are causing the demise of the planet. I feel as though I am single handedly solving global warming. Oh and I feel hella punk rock. No, I am serious, ride a bike. And not cause its better for the earth or better for your health, but because it allows you to be an elitist ass hole. Great feeling! I understand you Olympia! I finally understand. (By the way, if you have a car I will still thankfully accept rides anywhere because riding a bike is fucking tiring, oh and if anyone wants to give me a car and pay for my gas I'll ditch this fucking bike in a second.) 

Go Critical Mass!! Woot!

Back in Edmonds

Summer Goals:

Ride my bike
Accomplish all my work goals
Live cheaply and save up for next year
Do lots of arts and crafts
Reconnect with old friends
Spend more time with my family


I have commited to blogging again, although I don't have internet where I am living, I can figure it out. I am currently living with my sister Katrina, her boyfriend Ryan, and their friend Henry. I kind of feel like I am in a sitcom because of the different personalities living in and visiting our tiny apartment. Katrina and I are so different as it is. It should be a fun little experiment.

I started working at the Jeremiah Center. I have only worked for the past to days, but I am already really excited about it. The people I am working with are really encourging me to take a lot of leadership and to plan and live out my on goals for this summer.

I am still feeling a little awkward. Awkward at my apartment, and awkward at my job. I just need to get settled and figure out the flow of this summer. I already miss my Olympia friends. It is wierd for them not to be a block a way. Well my life is currently uninteresting, but the future looks bright!

I want to stencil right now.

its a sad sad truth

I know it has been a long time since I have blogged. I guess it is probably because I don't have the internet anymore. I am not in the business of lying to my beloved blog readers. I am probably not going to post much more until summer. But this summer, I can promise, will be full of amazing blog posts. Maybe even pictures!

Until then.

Good Bye!