Adulthood here I come

So, I have a year til I graduate.
I know that I have plenty of time to figure things out in my life, but I feel like if I haven't figured things out soon, I'm going to miss out.
It seems as though my time is limited, like I won't have time to do all the cool things I want to do.


Andi and I were talking about how we (or rather I) have a tendency to romanticize being punk rock. There are parts of me that just want to bum around the country and party everyday, void of any and all responsibility and accountability. But when I look around at people who are embodying this life style I am ultimately turned off by it.


I got paid today. I had been living off next to no money for nearly a month, it was hard for me. I can barely go a month without a financial security blanket before I freak out, and most of that time I was living with my mom.

I'm already applying for jobs for after I graduate; I don't want to be poor.


My job has been pretty cool so far this summer. Its an interesting change though. This year I barely ever had class, and although I pride myself on being very self motivated, its different having to adhere to someone else's schedule and needs before my own. I mean, its pretty damn real world though.

It seems as though college is a pretty self involved time, or at least my college experience has been. Everything I work for solely benefits myself and I am only responsible for myself. When I'm at the Jeremiah Center my actions directly affect my coworkers and the youth I am here to serve. Once again, real life as hell.


I always feel tempted to make "at least" one word, but then the little red line appears reminding me not to be stupid. Atleast.


I turn 21 in like two weeks. That's cool I guess, I mean I'm really into my birthday. I think there are like two different kinds of birthday people (or like 8). There are the people who get all weird and distant and hate their birthdays, and then there are people who love their birthdays. I'm definitely the latter. I feel kind of awkward making things all about me, but when it come down to it, I love when its all about me, at least for the day.



21 is a big deal I guess, like I'm joining a pretty exclusive club. Everyone gets to join eventually, but until you do you get to wait on the outside looking in (sometimes very literally).

Well adulthood here I come I guess.

dumb.

So much is happening, no energy to talk about it.



Montana
Movie making
Decemberists
Visitors
Moving
No sleep tonight...........

Birthday!

For my birthday this year I am going to be seeing the Decemberists at the Marymoor Park in Redmond, WA on July 17th. I just bought my ticket! If anyone wants to come with me, I would be so into this! Marymoor is an outdoor venue with general admission. I think this is going to be a really sweet show. But yes, whether your a Decemberists fan or a fan of me and want to spend my birthday with me you should get a ticket. Its pretty expensive though, like I spent a little over 50 dollars on the ticket and all the fees and stuff. So yeah, just let me know! 

Heck yeah!

Bored.

So, I know this old news to almost everyone who knows me, like even a little bit, but I love the Decemberists. I feel like I like them more today than other days. Shelby and I are seeing them in Montana in like three or four weeks. Also I am seeing them this summer, on my birthday in fact.

I showed my rough cut to my teacher today, I got some good feedback. It was so nerve racking, but now I don't have a solid deadline again for like 3 weeks, which mean I can calm down a little. But I might end up having to re shoot a scene or two. Also I need to re record some audio. I thought I was done with APS for the quarter, how wrong I was!!

I feel like I spend more time in the MML than I do at my house.


Dumb dumb dumb.




I am procrastinating work right now.


blah.



The Office and 30Rock are on in a couple hours. That is cool!

Terror Alert Level Orangish Red.

I feel like whenever I go to my Mom's place I actually hear about whats happening in the world. In Olympia I don't read the paper or watch the news. In all actuality I really just don't care about whats happening in the world. The only reason I would want to be kept up on current events would be to better understand South Park jokes. But anyways, whenever I stay at my Mom's I always watch hours of news (Conservative news at that, cause my mom decided she is a conservative now). And what does hours of news breed? Irrational fears! Last time I visited I was soooo worried about hyperinflation. Now I'm worried about a billion people dying because of the Swine Flu.


Dumb.

Why me and Shelby are the same person

So I was playing the animal guessing game with my younger sister today and it is important to keep in mind that she has no prior knowledge about any of the guess the animal games played in the past amongst myself and college friends. So she was asking questions and basically only knows that it is a mammal that doesn't live in America and is a few feet big.

She asks me "Is it a monkey?"

I say "Uhh, kind of"

She quickly, without hesitation responds "Oh a Lemur?"





I love my sister

Tisk Tisk Tisk.

It is evident by my last few blog posts that the phone update thing on Blogger has a lot of bugs to work out. I give it a D.