It seems like it is really easy to have sex

I haven't blogged for awhile. I probably have excuses, but I am too lazy to list them. I went and saw Lauren Winners at this church in Seattle. She is a Christian writer that talks a lot about gender issues relating to the bible. She was talking about the Trinity and how it is all about relationships that are equal and peaceful and that our relationships should reflect this. So, gender relations should be equal and peaceful. I really enjoyed, although it was very academic, and less inspiring. I feel like some people, when giving a talk, have mastered the art of persuasion, they know what to say and when to say it, in order to drive home a point. I don't think this is dishonest at all, I just think it is very intentional. For example, I really enjoy listening to the sermons of Rob Bell, I think he is incredibly insightful and wise, truly inspiring. I do believe that the reason he is so inspiring is because he knows how to be inspiring. Lauren Winners, although obviously very intelligent, wasn't trying to inspire or convince me of anything. She was including all the details, even if they didn't necessarily reinforce her point. She didn't say what I wanted (or needed) to hear. She just displayed the facts. 

I started reading one of her books, it isn't really written with the same blatant display of facts. I am not far into it, but I like it so far. It is kind of depressing so far though. It is all about Christian relationships and chastity. It was displaying a bunch of facts and stuff about high school and college aged kids, and they are all having sex. Even in (especially in) the Christian communities. Why is lust so hard? Why is it that even people who are committed to living their lives for Christ can't seem to avoid falling into the pressures of having sex. People can avoid drinking and doing drugs, they can show up to church every Sunday, but sexual sin seems unavoidable. I mean it obviously isn't, their are plenty of people who don't have sex till marriage, it just seems like a lot of people who seem to want to wait, can't. I mean I have bowed to the pressure of intimacy, and I consider myself to be a pretty strong willed individual. I just don't like that 14 and 15 year olds are having sex, they aren't able to mentally process those kinds of decisions. Lauren Winners was talking about how the church portrays sex in a really damaging way. They make it seem like all guys want is sex, and don't have emotions, and girls don't have sex drives, they just like doing their hair. neither of these things are true. Guys want emotional security and girls sometimes want to get laid. 

Whaaahh, enough whinning. I just want people to be healthy. I want to be healthy. I want the kids at the Jeremiah Center to know that they are beautiful and don't need to have sex to feel valued. I want to know that I am beautiful and I don't need to have sex to feel valued. 

Twin Peaks!! I want to be done blogging so that I can watch Twin Peaks. I want to be like Dale Cooper and eat pie and drink black coffee and solve murder mysteries. One day. 

one day.

I have had waaaayy too much coffee and not nearly enough food today. I'm all shaky. 

I have friends over, I am getting off the computer. 

ps. friends and loved ones, make good decisions and live more healthy, and encourage me to live better.