its a sad sad truth

I know it has been a long time since I have blogged. I guess it is probably because I don't have the internet anymore. I am not in the business of lying to my beloved blog readers. I am probably not going to post much more until summer. But this summer, I can promise, will be full of amazing blog posts. Maybe even pictures!

Until then.

Good Bye!

Someone skins you and makes a jacket from your flesh

11 days,

I don't think I have gone 11 days without blogging since I started.
This should be some insight into what my last 4 days were like.


We finally got the apartment today, after nearly a week of homelessness, we got the damn apartment. We are kind of moving in. I mean we moved a couple things over, but really, we haven't done much. I should get on that soon.

I went to La Conner, WA this weekend to hang out with Charlie and his family. It was a lot of fun. When you meet a kid like Charlie, you assume he is this black sheep in some uppity family. Like he is so weird and obnoxious (I mean this in the best way possible) in an attempt to rebel against the calm and normal nature of the environment around him. This is a very untrue assumption. Everything about La Conner is just kind of off in a really intentional way. It is this quirky small town that just seems to fit him perfectly. And his family is no exception. His family all looks alike and have very similar mannerisms. It is absolutely funny how much Charlie fits into this quirky little bubble.

Nathan and I, on the other hand, didn't fit in so well. Charlie may be completely irrationally afraid of cities and roads that have more than two lanes, but La Conner resonates with all my completely logical fears of open spaces and lack of lights and people. On Friday night we wondered around the .5 miles of La Conner, and it was just creepy. At any moment, some deranged hick could decide he doesn't like "city folk" and jump out of the bushes and kill me. I made the point to Charlie and Nathan that, although in cities you get shot or maybe stabbed, but in small towns, someone skins you and makes a jacket from your flesh. Oh and the crazy serial killer is always the sheriff or something similar. I don't need this kind of pressure.

We also hung out in Anacortes for a long time. The backporch Cafe is closed. This was very bad news for me. Oh and Anacortes doesn't know ho to make a crossword puzzle for shit.

Bible study is going good. A lot of people showed up on Monday, it was awesome.


I heard some bad news. Some good friends and mentors are moving away in a few months. Its weird to calculate how much certain individuals effect you and your development, and without probably even realizing that they are making an impact. Well you will be missed and you ill not go unappreciated.

I led the Net a couple weeks ago. I think I did alright, it was definitely a lot harder than I thought it would be. A good learning experience if anything. It is something that I want to do again in the future. I am so excited about working at the Jeremiah Center this summer, it should be so much fun.

I probably should get back to moving. I have a lot to get done tonight, and all I want to do is sleep!

I got the Rob Bell DVD "Everything is Spiritual," I am pumped!




... until next time.

The worlds most intimidating critics... 1 yr olds

I started the new job this week. I am working at the child care center. It is awesome! At first I was super intimidated, but now it feels like such a great fit. The first day I was working with the ducklings, also known as the 1-2 year olds. They are a tough age, any younger than that and they just cry and poop, anyone older has a better grasp on communicating and it is much easier to play and whatnot. The one year olds pose the challenge of needed to be interacted with, but struggling to communicate how they want that interaction to look like. Ya look at them and say "HEY! WANNA PLAY BALL?!?!?!" They just look at you and stare, stare and look away. So awkward. Rejected. Within the first few hours on the job, I was interacting and playing with the kids. They fricking loved me. Today I was working with the baby babies. They intimidate me the most. So fragile. I am afraid of breaking them.

I also have been waking up really early, LAME!

Its kind of nice. Several people at my job have commented on good with kids I am. It feels nice to know I can do something right. The whole getting fired thing did wonders for the self esteem.


I am tired and have to move out tonight with no where to go.

Could maybe a nap be in order?

Only fools are positive...

First day of class.

I really enjoy my program and I am so excited about what I am going to be doing this quarter, but I am kind of jealous of people who are in new classes this quarter. It is so exciting, meeting new facility and new classmates. Today we just discussed briefly the schedule for this quarter and then we jumped right into watching animation and boring technology lectures.

I have a goal for this quarter. I want to be on time and show up every day. For some, this may seem like an easily obtainable goal, but it will definitely present a challenge for me. Last quarter I was late, a lot. And I had quite a few absences. No more! I am going to take school more seriously now.

In other news, I want to move mountains, or more like I want to believe God can move mountains. I want to read more of the bible. I want to pray more. I'll keep ya updated.

I bought this wooden owl from Goodwill. I like it a lot. I am not sure why I am mentioning it right now, I got it like two weeks ago.

I got a job at the Phonathon. I'm currently working 12 hours a week at the phonathon and 5 hours a week at the child care center. I start tomorrow. I am kind of dreading this having a job thing. I have never had a real job before. I have never balanced scheduled work and school, or balanced scheduled work and anything. Mervyns barely counts. The first week they scheduled me more than 15 hours I quit. Stupid job. But now I work at the Phonathon, so I definitely escaped the "stupid job" bullet. Yep, my future is bright.


new job, new home, new quarter

Its kind of like I am almost, maybe, similar to an adult.
:(

Mother Unit, What is Love?

I'm back in Olympia.
It has been nice being able to sleep in my own bed and have all my things. And of course it is nice seeing all my friends here, but I do miss my family. When I am in Edmonds for the weekend, I always feel so rushed and I barely have enough time for anyone. Over spring break I had so much spare time, I really felt able to relax and hang out with my sisters and mom.

Last night I went to a show downtown. it was really energetic and crowded, especially for Olympia. I was into it. Only a few more days till I get to move off campus forever. Woot! It is kind of weird to not be aloud to live here ever again. I mean I probably wouldn't purely because it is more expensive. But I mean, housing is a community I have been extremely involved with for the last year and a half. It kind of sucks knowing that I can no longer ever be apart of something that I am so invested in.

Oh well. The Glen is my new home. Expect updates on house warming party. Oh and Our house blog will be up and running soon enough.



Now it is time to watch 30Rock.

yeah!

My Mommy and I saw 10,000 B.C. today. Hmmm, how do I describe this movie. In one word... Awesome!! You have the Evergreener (dreadlocks and blue eyes) battling the Egyptian empire. So you know how everyone wonders how they built the pyramids, or at least were amazed at how they could move such huge rocks. Well apparently they used woolly mammoths. A weird thing about the movie is that they were kicking it in Ancient Egypt, whilst they were building the pyramids. And one could conclude that the movie took place in 10,000 B.C., and I believe the pyramids were not built until much later.

I would say the best part of the movie was when there was a saber tooth tiger stuck in this hole and it was drowning. The main character was about to kill him. I whipser to my mom, "if he befriends the saber tooth tiger I'm leaving." Within seconds you se the main character fel bad for the tiger and he says to him, "if I save you, you can't kill me" What the hell.



I don't think it was as good as A Day After Tomorrow.





We were two of seven people in the theatre.

meh, life is hard.

Spring break!

Last year I took a train with some of my best friends to San Francisco. It was an adventure. We rode on a train for 25 hours and navigated a city non of us had ever been to before.

This year I have spent most of spring break laying around my mom's apartment watching TV and feeling sorry for myself. It was definitely less exciting than last year. I keep on thinking things are going to get better tomorrow. "Once winter quarter is over, everything will be better" "Once I am not an RA, everything will be better" "Once I change variable X everything will be better." Maybe things aren't just going to get better. Maybe time isn't enough to make positive change. I want this quarter to be better than the last. I want my life to be better. I want to be happier, more productive, more honest. What can I do to make this change. I always feel like I am in this transition. College is just preparing me for the next step. But maybe I shouldn't keep settling, because I am constantly holding out for the next step. I want things to be better an more fulfilling now.

meh, life is hard.