Some Sick Parody

This man, Jim Caldwell, is the coach for the Colts, who lost the Super Bowl today.

He will not yell.

He will not scream.

He will not giving a rousing half-time speech in the locker room that motivates the players, giving them a new found faith in themselves.

No, he will just look at you

With his piercing stare.

After the game today, he made the team stand in a line and one by one he looked them straight in the face.

He just looked.

At this moment, they all new they were failures.

But enough about the Super Bowl, which is obviously just some sick parody of tonights main event!!

PUPPY BOWL VI!!!

At first I was routing for Bear to be the MVP, but this was before I saw any game play (yes, I looked up all the starting puppies online before the show), but after seeing this puppy in action, well it was obvious. This puppy, named Jake, didn't make any touch downs (but thats so obvs not what the Puppy Bowl is about) but he played so hard. He gave it his all. Generally I don't appreciate an underdog story (really, there was no way to avoid that), but no one expected Jake to be able to bring it, but he did! He restored my faith in determination and the power of believing in your self!! He is an American hero.

I think we can all agree the bunny cheerleaders were a joke!

Restless

Ya know those sitcoms where there is some push pull romance that keeps you coming back for more. I think the Office Jim and Pam romance is a key example. The audience is made to be sooo aware of the right answer. Obviously Pam should dump Roy and be with Jim. It is almost frustrating, why can't these characters see what is so obvious to everyone else, why aren't they aware of the easy way to happiness. And the creators of the show know why we tune in every week. We NEED to see whats going to happen, we NEED to have resolution. I would say 9 times out of 10 eventually the two people come together. Some shows are able to draw us in to a single romantic struggle for a long time, I mean Jim and Pam didn't get together till the fourth season. We all came back week after week for four seasons to see if the inevitable would finally happen.

After there finally is some sort of resolution, it almost seems fruitless coming back. I mean, maybe the Office isn't a prime example because it is actually a really good show that I enjoy a lot still, but I probably don't watch each new episode with as much enthusiasm as I once did.

We love to watch these fictional characters live in romantic tension. It is exciting, thrilling and always keeps us coming back for more.

I am not sure why I wrote this, or maybe I do. I feel like recently I've been more reflective than usual, or maybe just more confused. I am going to spend a day (like 24 hours) at a monastery this week I think. I want to get away and have some alone time to think and reflect. I am having trouble even articulating how I've been feeling lately.

Frustrated

Unsatisfied

Bored

Restless

...I am anticipating something, but I have no idea what.

I'm like ready for some big change. I am living in nervous and exciting tension.

But nothing is on the horizon.

Not to be like whinny. My life is going great! I should be completely satisfied, and maybe that is the problem: everything is satisfactory yet nothing is extraordinary.

Why am I not a traveling French orphan with nothing but a bicycle and a mysterious and enticing aura?

Oh yeah... I don't speak French.

Man, what the fuck am I talking about?

The problem with these push pull relationships is that there is always something preventing the two people to get together. This blockade is strong enough and important enough to keep one or more of the characters distracted. It or they seemingly just complicate the situation.

But without the blockade there is no tension.

Without tension there is no excitement.

Without excitement, you just get the satisfactory.

Hipsters in History!

Amelia Earhart is an Oly hipster:

High waisted tweed(ish) slacks

Frumpy yet form fitting sweater over a collared button-up

Boy scout scarf

unkempt short curly hair

Oly hipsters would be sooo much cooler if they flew airplanes.

Time On the Ole Hands

So a friend of mine tweeted this question; Do you ever wonder what people say about you when you're not around?

In my mind on a very conscious level I decided I didn't want to know, that it didn't really ever bother me, it was silly to let something like that get in your way or slow you down in the least bit.

But then I realized on a much more subtle level of my subconcious I decided I didn't care because I assumed people never ever spoke poorly about me. I mean maybe people who don't like me, but I don't care what they say. Their were these two girls that started a rumor in 8th grade that I stuffed my bra, it was dumb. But other than that I honestly don't think that anyone I am friends with would ever say things about me behind my back. Maybe it is really ignorant to think this.

Whatever, Ignorance is bliss I guess!

Too Tired To Form Paragraphs

"Life is strange and people change and circle round again"


I don't know why I just quoted Page France. I think I should like more bands, bands are cool.


I'm 21 now. Here is what I can conclude about who Tasha is as a 21 year old:

-When it come down to spending 4 dollars on a burrito or 4 dollars on a beer, I will always choose a burrito.
-I don't actually like any bars I've been too, and I am still waiting to find the one that fits me right (Like in How I Met Your Mother, they have their bar)
-My mom is significantly cooler than me
-I still like getting coffee more than I like going to the bars.


I'm going to Minnesota soon. Corbin and I are flying together. I'm really anxious about the airport, like every thing leading up to getting on the plane. Corbin is really anxious about everything that happens once we get on the plane. We should make a great team. I'm excited to see Manders, DC, Rip and Amy... Mostly DC.


We have an espresso machine at the JC. Today I made a mean Mocha. Now like half of my life dreams have come true.



On Saturday I rode my bike a lot with Daniel. From 175th to the U district. It was like the first time all summer I exercised. For that last sentence I had to look up how to spell exercise. Dumb.


I paid rent over the phone. Fuck you postal system! You will not have my valuable stamps!


At my mom's we can't find the remote for the TV. She has the digital cable so you can't change the channel without it. The TV is stuck on Disney. Dumb.
I'm way too into the show Megan Wants a Millionaire.




I have too much work to do this week.

Big Dumb Metaphor

Dumb mood

I had a relatively good day.

I saw Away We Go today with Holly and Andi, that was a lot of fun, it was a great movie!
Hung out with the family, that was also enjoyable.
Ate falafel, as anyone knows, I love falafel!



I went to see the Pharmacy this evening also. Most people who knew me two years ago, know how much I love the Pharmacy! I have seen them over 25 times in my life, more so than any other band by a long shot. I believed I blogged maybe 6-7 months ago about their last show in Seattle before they all moved to New Orleans, I talked about how it kind of represented an era of my life that had come to an end. It was a great night! I saw tons of friends and sang to all my favorite songs. It was just the perfect closure anyone would need, I had a great time and accepted maybe I'm not that person anymore, the person who will sit on a bus for three hours every weekend to see her favorite band. Maybe I am not the kind of person who stakes a significant amount of her identity in how obscure the bands she sees are. Maybe I am not the kind of person who will put all other obligations aside to spend a night with her best friend listening to their favorite band, or maybe I am still, I don't know.

I kind of romanticize things, like too often, that hold some sort of sentimental value. Certain places or things, as insignificant as they may seem, I hold to a high esteem because they are representative for something that is definitely significant, like friendship. I think the Pine Cone is an example of that, or the Top Hat Society. Well I kind of went into this night thinking it would be like a friend reunion, it would be a night of nostalgia and reconnection. It was anything but this. Not so much with the band, I mean yeah, they didn't play many songs I knew, but it hasn't really been about that for a long time.

I guess I was just holding out, no matter how bad things have been, some things are sacred, some things can't be touched, or I thought. I thought nostalgia and strong good memories where enough to change the current pattern of unreliability or lack of involvement, but I was obviously mistaken.


It isn't even about the show, really its just like some big dumb metaphor about how shit isn't going to be like it used to be, I've changed and you've changed and everything else has fucking changed. Its about expectations not being met and realities being faced. Like maybe things are fucked and maybe I have to face it.



dumb.

Bleh, my birthday is in a week, everyone should get me tons of birthday presents!

Happy Birthday America!

Generally I'd classify myself as a fun loving individual, usually up for adventure and whatnot, but in certain times I kind of become a huge party pooper and do what I can in my life to repel the fun train. This awful side of me become most prevalent on certain holidays, namely New Years Eve, Valentines Day and the 4th of July. I think what it is, is that these days come with all sorts of expectations, you need to have certain kinds of fun on those days and if you don't you fail.

I think there are a lot of people who need strong convincing something is going to be fun before they embark, like they need to know every detail of the events and you need to outline why it is worth there time to do what ever fun activity it is that you want them to do. I can't stand this attitude! I want to just go with the flow and make my own fun, you know, I usually don't wait for fun to happen, I make it happen!

Despite my usual "Go for it and have tons of fun while doing it!" attitude, on the fore mentioned holidays I generally intentionally avoid all fun on purpose, so that if I do end up having a bad time its because I chose to, not because I am lame. Sweet logic right?

For example, last New Years Eve a few friends and I decided we weren't going to go out, we were just going to stay in and watch movies. Boycott all New Years Eve style fun!! But then last minute we decided to go to a dance party, and it was lame. So we attempted to have fun, but we failed!!

Anyways, I decided this year I didn't want my 4th of July to be bogged down by my fear of not having fun, so I decided to just go for it and actually have fun! (Weird, I know!)

It started off with Memo's, a 24 hour Mexican food restaurant on University Ave, my new favorite place! Then Andi, Hailestorm and I met up with tons of lovely people at a Damage Done show in the U district. Saw lots of cool people and listened to punk rock! Then we bused over to this block party right off of East Lake. There was a mechanical bull, slip n' slide, a DJ and tons of people! We hung out there for a few hours and watched the firework show. After that back to Memo's for round two! Then we needed to get back to Andi's, but it was pretty late and the buses stopped running, so we decided to take a cab. I couldn't get through to the cab company because the number was busy for a long time. We walked outside and saw a cab and hailed it! Well mostly Lauren, but I helped a little. It was awesome, like in the movies! Anyways, made our way safely back to Andi's and then watched Arrested Developement! What a perfect fourth of July!


Moraly of the story: I had fun, good for me!

Happy Birthday America!

Adulthood here I come

So, I have a year til I graduate.
I know that I have plenty of time to figure things out in my life, but I feel like if I haven't figured things out soon, I'm going to miss out.
It seems as though my time is limited, like I won't have time to do all the cool things I want to do.


Andi and I were talking about how we (or rather I) have a tendency to romanticize being punk rock. There are parts of me that just want to bum around the country and party everyday, void of any and all responsibility and accountability. But when I look around at people who are embodying this life style I am ultimately turned off by it.


I got paid today. I had been living off next to no money for nearly a month, it was hard for me. I can barely go a month without a financial security blanket before I freak out, and most of that time I was living with my mom.

I'm already applying for jobs for after I graduate; I don't want to be poor.


My job has been pretty cool so far this summer. Its an interesting change though. This year I barely ever had class, and although I pride myself on being very self motivated, its different having to adhere to someone else's schedule and needs before my own. I mean, its pretty damn real world though.

It seems as though college is a pretty self involved time, or at least my college experience has been. Everything I work for solely benefits myself and I am only responsible for myself. When I'm at the Jeremiah Center my actions directly affect my coworkers and the youth I am here to serve. Once again, real life as hell.


I always feel tempted to make "at least" one word, but then the little red line appears reminding me not to be stupid. Atleast.


I turn 21 in like two weeks. That's cool I guess, I mean I'm really into my birthday. I think there are like two different kinds of birthday people (or like 8). There are the people who get all weird and distant and hate their birthdays, and then there are people who love their birthdays. I'm definitely the latter. I feel kind of awkward making things all about me, but when it come down to it, I love when its all about me, at least for the day.



21 is a big deal I guess, like I'm joining a pretty exclusive club. Everyone gets to join eventually, but until you do you get to wait on the outside looking in (sometimes very literally).

Well adulthood here I come I guess.

dumb.

So much is happening, no energy to talk about it.



Montana
Movie making
Decemberists
Visitors
Moving
No sleep tonight...........

Birthday!

For my birthday this year I am going to be seeing the Decemberists at the Marymoor Park in Redmond, WA on July 17th. I just bought my ticket! If anyone wants to come with me, I would be so into this! Marymoor is an outdoor venue with general admission. I think this is going to be a really sweet show. But yes, whether your a Decemberists fan or a fan of me and want to spend my birthday with me you should get a ticket. Its pretty expensive though, like I spent a little over 50 dollars on the ticket and all the fees and stuff. So yeah, just let me know! 

Heck yeah!

Bored.

So, I know this old news to almost everyone who knows me, like even a little bit, but I love the Decemberists. I feel like I like them more today than other days. Shelby and I are seeing them in Montana in like three or four weeks. Also I am seeing them this summer, on my birthday in fact.

I showed my rough cut to my teacher today, I got some good feedback. It was so nerve racking, but now I don't have a solid deadline again for like 3 weeks, which mean I can calm down a little. But I might end up having to re shoot a scene or two. Also I need to re record some audio. I thought I was done with APS for the quarter, how wrong I was!!

I feel like I spend more time in the MML than I do at my house.


Dumb dumb dumb.




I am procrastinating work right now.


blah.



The Office and 30Rock are on in a couple hours. That is cool!

Terror Alert Level Orangish Red.

I feel like whenever I go to my Mom's place I actually hear about whats happening in the world. In Olympia I don't read the paper or watch the news. In all actuality I really just don't care about whats happening in the world. The only reason I would want to be kept up on current events would be to better understand South Park jokes. But anyways, whenever I stay at my Mom's I always watch hours of news (Conservative news at that, cause my mom decided she is a conservative now). And what does hours of news breed? Irrational fears! Last time I visited I was soooo worried about hyperinflation. Now I'm worried about a billion people dying because of the Swine Flu.


Dumb.

Why me and Shelby are the same person

So I was playing the animal guessing game with my younger sister today and it is important to keep in mind that she has no prior knowledge about any of the guess the animal games played in the past amongst myself and college friends. So she was asking questions and basically only knows that it is a mammal that doesn't live in America and is a few feet big.

She asks me "Is it a monkey?"

I say "Uhh, kind of"

She quickly, without hesitation responds "Oh a Lemur?"





I love my sister

Tisk Tisk Tisk.

It is evident by my last few blog posts that the phone update thing on Blogger has a lot of bugs to work out. I give it a D.

nt out that I don't have a key pad and am hella T9ing this shit.

So I think blogger wants to be more like twitter, cause now apparently you can update your blog from your phone. Although I think this function is a lit

Done with my produc for my proj

I started and finished shooting the Pine Cone yesterday. It was one of the most intense things I've ever done. Of course it wouldn't have been possible without so many amazing people.

I have been neglecting important aspects of my life for the last week due to the stress of preparing for the shoot, so hopefully I can take the next couple days to get my life back to order.

I have lots of thoughts about production and hopefully in the next week I will have clips posted to my production blog.

So as many of you are aware yesterday was Easter. It was kind of weird not being able to go home and spend it with my family. My mom sent me an Easter basket, which is like the coolest thing ever. I actually got three packages in the mail this last week. I mean two were from Amazon.com, but it was still exciting.

I get to drink coffee again. It is actually kind of weird, because I don't need it anymore, I think about it less. When I first stopped drinking it a mere 47 days ago I thought about it like every hour or so, many aspects of my life changed because coffee and caffeine were no longer apart of my routine. Today for example I got up and left my house and was running around doing stuff for like 4 hours because I got coffee. Its like now I have to remember to drink it, opposed to it being an integral part of my life. Meh, whatever, I imagine things will get back to normal as soon my schedule and life gets back to normal.

I saw Adventure Land and Observe and Report recently, I enjoyed both very much. This week I want to see Crank 2: High Voltage and Wendy and Lucy. Movies movies, I like movies. Sometimes I make movies. Movies movies movies.



ps. The Decemberists are playing a show in Redmond on my 21st birthday. Boo yah!

O:NHVGT

The sun is shinning! I am so excited about this. I know this is like dumb to say because everyone loves the sun and is excited about its tendancy to shine in the spring, but still, fuck yeah!

Yesterday Operation: Not Having a Very Good Time, or O:NHVGT had our first event. We went to Snoqulamie Falls and North Bend to eat at the diner in the tv show Twin Peaks. It was a lot of fun. I got a nose bleed from the altitude I assume, that was kind of weird. 

On the way back I put on this mix I made for Charlie last Spring of my favorite music to listen to when it is sunny. Like half of the music was silly things I really liked when I was 12-15 years old, but the other half was more DIY music that I was into last Spring. Listening to it made me miss music. I don't know whats been happening recently in my life, but I just haven't been interested in going to shows. Most of my friends in Olympia aren't neccessarily into the same music I am, so it would make sense that I wouldn't go to shows with them, but it didn't stop me Freshmen or Sophomore year. Ugh, well now thats it sunny again I want to get back into shows starting with Defiance, Ohio next week. 

Oh, I'm filming my movie in like 5 days and that scares me sooo much I want to scream.

Bored.

So I get in these funks where I don't blog for a long time because nothing in my life is particularly blog worthy. And so then get all weird because I haven't blogged in awhile so I feel like I can't just write something dumb, cause I could have been writing dumb things all along. But I refuse to let that stop me this time!!

Spring break was great and included such wonderful things like:
Fam
Friendship
Jeremiah Center
Tattoo
Bingo
Hear Me Out
Monopoly
Digital Cable


I have class today which is always something I enjoy.

uhh... Punk Rock!

Poll

I tried adding a pole to my blog but it wouldn't work, so now we are just going to have to do this the old fashion way. Please respond to the following question by posting the corresponding answer in my comments section

I gave up caffeine/coffee for lent, is drinking decaf coffee in violation of that?

A) Yes, it is a violation.

B) No, drink it up.

C) No, but it is the antithesis of everything you believe in so don't drink it!

D) Uhh, its tricky. Maybe just on Sundays. 

So what do you think?